His Glory

Our 21 Days of consecration is in full swing and what you would expect me to say is that how AWESOME or what a blessing it has been, so far. Naturally that's the testimony, one would expect. I mean spending on average 5 hours a day in prayer and supplication, that's what you would expect to hear; "oh what a blessings the early prayer has been in my life", "I'm so enjoying the fast" or "I'm seeing God do so much in my life", "I feel so encouraged and directed in the Lord since we began our 21 Days";  however this is not at all how I was feeling..not at all. Admittedly I was rather despondent and sort of confused and growing weary. I found myself asking God, what is going on? I'm fasting, praying, spending  an exuberant amount of time studying the Bible yet I feel discouraged...confused and full of doubt??? How is this possible? I mean we were starting our 2nd week and I was looking for some AWESOMENESS (is that a real word?) well the Glory of God to show up! I mean when reading Exodus 16:7 it says "and in the morning you will see the glory of the Lord," ...and then in verse 10 it says "...And there it was: the Glory of GOD visible in the Cloud." So naturally because I'm up, it's morning , so where is the Glory?

I did not have the answer to what I was feeling and thinking. I simply would repeat to myself over and over again...Eddie, don't be tired or weak in well doing, just keep on keeping on. It's not about you anyways, you know that others are being blessed. I knew all that but I still wanted my blessing too. I just kept coming. I would make sure to check my alarm before going to bed each night and make sure to get up at 4, get dressed and get to the church for prayer. Then the Lord met me...and it wasn’t early in the morning at all. Though I was seeking Him early, oh how He met me later...to be continued.

Living & Loving the Experience,

PEZ